The Gods are Bastards will be going on official hiatus until mid-August, aiming to resume the third week of the month. I sincerely apologize for this. Explanation to follow; if discussion of depression, mental health, or various current events (you probably know the ones) are uncomfortable or triggering for you, you may want to skip the rest of this post.
So, the long and the short of it is I’m having the most severe mental health breakdown I’ve had in years. Not the worst ever, but the worst in a long time, and I am basically failing, entirely, to function. It’s not just updates to the story that have ceased; it’s been weeks since I’ve managed to do anything. This has been a perfect storm of problems, I think. My depressive episodes have been getting steadily worse for the last few years anyway, I’ve grown increasingly burned out on the story itself to the point that I was starting to dread having to write each chapter, and then came the outside influences. I have been responsibly socially isolating and will continue to do so for the foreseeable future because I live in a country whose pandemic measures have been blitheringly incompetent on average, and the isolation has been progressively wearing on me, interacting with my existing condition in a way I did not anticipate and am handling poorly. And now, most recently, the city I live in has become the front line in my government’s attempted slide into fascism. I don’t think I’m in immediate physical danger from that, hiding in my apartment as I’ve been anyway, but the stress it causes is still constant and severe. Basically, this has moved beyond one of my standard depressive episodes and verges on a full-blown crisis.
I don’t know what, if anything, I can do about it. There’s really no mental health care of any kind available to me. I hate to call a hiatus now; it’s an incredibly stupid time, with this book in its climax and last few chapters. I was trying so hard to get to the end of Book 16 and then take the break, but I failed to make it. I’m sorry for that. At this point, though, the only real change I’m able to make toward self-care is declaring the break official just to remove the weight of my ongoing failure to produce chapters from hanging over me so immediately. That’s been my greatest source of additional stress the last couple of weeks.
I just want to reiterate how sorry I am for all of this. I hate letting down the people who’ve done so much to support me, and I wish I could do better for you. I love and appreciate everyone who reads my story; all I want is to make something cool that brings people a little happiness, because we certainly all need some. I’ll try to do better in the future, but for right now I’m forced to acknowledge that the best thing I can do is try to pull myself back together a bit.
I’ll still be reachable via discord, and will post any updates there, as well as here. There will be a few changes when I return in August; I have some ideas I want to try, particularly toward offering some additional benefits for Patreon backers. At any rate, once TGAB resumes the standard update incentives will, and given the backlog that has accumulated while it was suspended, extra chapters will be funded for quite a few weeks to come.
Please stay safe out there, and take care of yourselves. I’ll be back as soon as I can. Sorry about everything.
edit: I only realized after the fact I first posted this in the wrong part of the site. Seriously, I’m not functioning well. Sorry, should be fixed now for RSS readers.